It's Really very Upsetting to see you guys in this situation. Five years friendship, Don't let go just like that. Cheer up, I hope everything will be alright soon. Crying does not solve everything. You both need to face the reality. This is our last yr in Stc, Please try to make peace. It' not gonna work if none of you all speak your mind out. Don't ignore your wmotions and put on a Facade. Please Talk Things Out Soon (: Things between me and ash are not alright but I'm ignoring my emotions already. We're pretenders. Probably, It will work out. I have my Insecurities but I'm just not showing them out cause the fear of you leaving is lsdnmakjnljewdslhk. I'm Paranoid. I don't want any goodbyes for now. You know after every quarrel, I understand you better. Probably you never loved me, just infactuation all this while. But I'm assuming & that's not right.


School was Intriguing. Compo was difficult, really difficult though I chose the easiest topic. Just wait & see, I'm gonna flung everything plus O levels. & I'm so gonna be a Bloody Disgrace to Everyone who knows me. nskdkjoiquiyetmxsnnbcxvc. Like discriminated against, oh man how does it feel ? I need to study, study. I need to get my Piorities right. I think I'm spending too much time with Ash and not concentrating. I need to have self discipline. I need to have faith in God, most importantly. But how can I do that when I'm here doing a Grave Mistake ? I'm so screwed, I need to do this & that. Tsk.

♥ Sayonara.
9:46 PM





& again, Quarrelled. I'm getting sick and tired over the same damn thing again. Go away from me if you feel for another. Don't be afraid to break this heart, just go. Leave if your heart's not in it anymore. Don't lead me on, the feeling sucks. I've got so much of questions in my head but answers are still "I DON'T KNOW." Bullshit.We can't go on like this if you're faking this Love. & all you care is about you quarrelled with her for me. Did you ever spare a thought for me ? I came down all the way, Tmr is my english Mid Year & this is what I get. Great Indeed. Not everything can be done your way. Not everything you say is right, not everything Ash. T-R-U-S-T is not a mere five letter word but It has a deep meaning. & I guess this is what brings about Insecurities. I've already told you, Do what you think is Right but Do not regret things. You still have my heart, you're the one I'll stick by.

Dear You ;
Whatever you're to the world, you become everything to me. When you look into my eyes travelling to depths of my soul & you say a million things without a trace of a sound. You know that your own life in inevitable consumed within the rythmic beatings of my very heart. I love you for a million reasons. No paper would do it Justice. It is a thing not of the mind but if the hearts. A feeling only felt. ♥ ♥

♥ Sayonara.
9:51 PM





Dear Twelve,

Drink Plenty of water & Please eat.

Takecare (: MAHAL KITA.

Everything is alright now. There's more understanding between us, let's hope so. Haha, & I went over to her place to visit her since she is down with a fever. & guess what, I was mesmerized by her the whole time I was with her. She even looks more adorable when she's not alright/well. Oh man, Your ______ & ______ , I heart (: HAHA. Folks are friendly people, All good people. Her dad talked to me about her. Haha, Her folks LOVE me. YAY. & I was suppose to said "Bye, Uncle", Instead I said "Bye, DADDY !" So Embarassing, I tell you. Tsk Tsk. Haha. We kicked it off today, Thanks for all the L.O.V.E.

♥ Sayonara.
10:58 PM

Bad hair day =/ alright, my hair was always bad in school, Nvm. Now Things are not getting better lah, She is talking to me NOT. Her mobile Confiscated. I'm Blacked-Out. Tell me, what can I do ? I just called her Residence, she has gone for tuition. I guess she is just waiting for me to end this whole attachment. & if I'm not wrong, Love on her part is already GONE. Let's just wait & see. I won't let go till I'm Tired. I can't see any sense of logic in whatever she made a Fuss about. Tsk. Probably, I don't even have a value in your life & probably I'm one of the random ones whom you will just throw away. You gave hopes, all the high hopes. Oh wells, Today is the 2nd month of all happenings. Damn, look at the situation now. It's just hanging. We should just ask ourselves, where the hell did we go wrong ? "If love's already gone, it's not fair to lead me on cause i would give the whole world for you. Please don't try to FAKE what you don't feel". I do not have special talents to read others' minds. You have to tell me what do you want. Reality is here, Face it. Don't walk on me things hanging halfway, you know this heart here is breaking for you. It's clutching onto something new. The heart that has fallen too deep. Funny it may seem to see a person like me who has no cares in the world Broken-Up. It's not a wonderful/amazing experience. The heart is still waiting for all the answers. It wasn't meant to be, It didn't seem to last. I'm cleaning up as well, NOT.

♥ Sayonara.
8:00 PM





I wake up on a friday morning. Tuition-ed. I hear her voice on the line & there I go whiney again. My whole body aches, muscle cramps all over. I was being whiney all the way. Haha, she's such a sweetie pie. Hey ____ , I Heart You TruckLoads. You're being missed, WOOF. Changi airport-ed yesterday. Mabel, Sam, Liane & I, Funny People. We almost got lost while trying to find our way to the supermarket. HILARIOUS man. LOL. & yes, jellybeans were not there for you ; Miss Lopez. Candy Umpire sells them. & yes, We cam-whored ALOT. The usuals. Miss Lopez lost her mood. When one is down, the rest shuts too. Tsk. Cheer Up, Miss Lopez. & I'm addicted to Deep & Meaningless. Addicted, addicted. Oh man, the lines singing in my head. It reminds me of that girl. Just that girl with Dimples & Sexaye Eyes. Now, I'm Off. I need to do my work (: Good Day.

♥ Sayonara.
6:56 PM





& My eyes burn, The hurt I'm feeling now won't disappear overnight. You knew what you were doing to me & I guess I was too blind to see. You hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad. But I'd do it again to relive what we had. Tears fills me, What can I say ? Give me Time, I need to get over it. Tell me, how can I make you happier each Lovin' Day ? With a Question, Hanging WHY ? My Love for you is Deep & Meaningless. The feelings that you hide, the lines I never read. Don't take my Love for granted for soon It'll be Gone. Did you ever ask yourself the question, Where the hell did I go wrong ? Cause you know when It's true, I'll be waiting for you. Pushed out & waiting, Just breaking for you. Why, Why, Why, Why ?
All I want is Answers. Till then, My heart is resting. BYE.

♥ Sayonara.
9:11 PM