♥ Pretty words, Beautiful Lies.

The past few days have been tiring and sleepy. Four weeks away from the major exams are not very far. The dream of going to a JC has been all shattered lah. I can't make it man. But still, I am not giving up. Pfft. & today is gonna be the last day of tuition. Damnit. I need to practice on my own alr. Hur, I really want to do well okay. I need to get through this, It's hard but we don't have a choice. This has been my biggest worry. Mental stamina, I need the strength to go on. How I wish, this was all over & I do not have to deal with it anymore.

So adamant, she is. I am wasting my time on trivial complications of the heart and mind. I really would appreciate if you live up to your school's motto "Women of Integrity". The truth is obvious & her ego is just so big that she can't be honest. What's wrong with you and what were you thinking ? I wished it was me I believed in. I wish I wasn't so naive. I wish I knew what to say or do but I don't. Probably you would. Bonds that break, loved ones fade. I hope the miles find a bridge. Why does the heart bleed & why am I so tongue-tied ?
I am letting inconsequential things plaque my thoughts.

xoxo,
Nish.

♥ Sayonara.
5:48 PM





I cannot take this anymore. I am losing the strength to go on for another month. Endurance is all it takes & I so don't have it. I am so tired lah, my eyes are so tired too. & today is such a FANTABULOUS day. Hur, damnit lah. I was feeling irritated, annoyed for no particular reason. Apparently, I think I am going through Pre-menstrual Syndrome. Pffft ): I hate to see my tamil results. It's out & I failed my paper two ? DAMN DAMN DAMN. I am so irritated with myself ! hur. Probably I should bite my wrist like what liane did to vent her frustrations. Arghh. The feeling sucks okay. I can't even do well for my second language. Whatever lah, so annoying. I am doing everything that I should not be doing. Tsk. Monday falls, fasting starts. It's so quick, It feels like I just did it when it was like last year. Sometimes, it's so difficult to make it a point to be faithful to my own religion. It's good in a way, the fats that are multiplying my stomach can at least loosen up a little. heh. And now, If I continue typing. I'll start being crappy. GOODBYE.

♥ Sayonara.
8:50 PM






Oh man, she's HOT.
Her name is Fazilla Mohanan.
I keep looking at this picture with my eyes wide open.
Her SMILE makes my day okay.
HOT MATERIAL (:

♥ Sayonara.
8:58 PM





And so, this marks the end of prelims. There's still so much to do for Os with so little time. Tsk. And here, I'm wasting my time by being online. Ash is being such a irritant now, such a pest you know I tell you. Hurhur. I just uploaded the graduation photos to my friendster. I've got really few pictures now. I can't be bothered lah. heh. & I've got this stupid DOOFUS face expression whenever I am captured in the camera. Damnit. DOOFUS. I am pretty sure to get 30 over points for prelims. Apparently, even the ITE(s) wouldn't want me. This is so DEMORALISING. Pfft ): I am so tired right now but I am still online spending my time so wisely NOT. I need to rest my eyes man. My table is so MESSY. It's piled up with books and papers. I need to clean it soon.

I am back after taking a nap, I just woke up. And I still want to go back to me beautiful sleep. Haha, I am such a PIG lah. Oh, we both fall asleep on the phone with each other ? How lame can we get. Cause I didn't want to end the conversation. Haha. Alright, I'll come back later. Farewell (:

♥ Sayonara.
1:03 PM





Please don't let this turn into something
it's not I can only give you everything I've got
I can't be as sorry as you think I should
But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking throughout this whole flight
Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right
This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long
Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong
The last girl in the last reason to make this last for as long as I could
First kiss in your first time that I felt connected to anything
The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I had ever learned
The final word in the final seconds you ever learned to me was love

We have got through so much worse than this before
What's so different this time that you can't ignore
You say it is much more than just my last mistake
And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

And I don't know where to look
My words just break and melt
Please just save me from this darkness

xoxo.

♥ Sayonara.
8:09 PM





okay, 2 more days for prelims to be over. The O levels are drawing nearer & nearer. With six more weeks to go & we'll all be on our own. It's darn sad lah. Alright, speaking about today. It was F&N. Prelims are really DEMORALISING. ): Damnin lah. Last minute studying really sucks & I seriously lack mental stamina. I can't do papers which are TWO hours long. Hur, I hate prelims lah. -.- Oh, I've got a advance birthday gift from my pretty sexy AWESOME jane ! (: She's so funny yet so sweet. Heh, love you lah JANE :D A shirt that says "I MAY NOT BE PERFECT BUT SOME PARTS OF ME ARE PRETTY AWESOME". hahaha! okay, now my dear classmates. you should know what are the some parts of me are PRETTY AWESOME. Alright, I'm so crappy now. Yesterday I was so broken but today everything seemed alright even though they're NOT. Right now, I need to go and study for accounts. It's two hours long too, ):

Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh.

There's nothing like you & I.

♥ Sayonara.
4:32 PM





Lies that needed to be uncovered.
downright broken.

F.

♥ Sayonara.
9:02 PM





To start of with, Nisha and I would like to wish Jane a
Happy Birhday.

Anyways, Nisha has locked her laptop away and is being so mean so me, being so nice and kind, will help her update her blog, whenever I can.

Today, we had SS which was alright, if the topics yuou studied came out. If not, good luck cause you'll need it.
Yesterday, Nisha had MT but I forgot to ask her how it went. And after that we had Accounts which was quite okay. Oh, and Nisha likes the new Giordano lycra tops. She likes the green one and the brown one and basically most of the colours. Plus, her birthday is coming. (: *hint hint*

Anyways, I'd like to tell Nisha that, I love my Sexy Indian the most-est. More than her *ahem* fling ever will.

Love, Hot Chindian. (:

♥ Sayonara.
2:43 PM