Hurhur, I'm back again. And so, they decided not to go for Council Farewell. So I didn't go too. School was alright. I was alone during tamil again. He praised my Compo. He was like it is a well written compo. Haha. I got 36/50 which I think can be better. I'm starting to do all his work now cause I really wanna get better grades. Haha. And so, geog was boring NOT. Double chem was alright lah, he was in a frustrated mood. Pfft ): Recess with MABEL :D Muffins from samantha, so delicious okay. YUM ! Haha. Photographs with the japanese girls. I think that girl is pretty too, haha. So mabel, you think you very hot lah. You won the hearts of all races. It's nothing great lah. Hahaha! Maths was fun ! Played Bingo with Rachel & Sharon. I won okay. SS was wasted away cause Mr Tan apparently didn't come to school. Cam whored, Cam whored. Watched the inter class debates during assembly. 3C deserve to won lah. That indian girl speaks so well and fluently okay. And then, started talking about how smart indians are. Haha.
And, the motion of today's debates was "THE HOUSE BELIEVES THAT THE PAST IS BETTER THAN THE PRESENT".

Chinese=Doctors
Indians=Lawyers
Malays=Hawker Centres

Okay, that is what the great, LIANE LOPEZ concluded. I agree in a way with the malays one. Haha. Not insulting but sometimes truth hurts lah. Hurhur.

I have been thinking, thinking, thinking.
All this while, it's been all the same.
It's always you & her.
I seem to be nonchalent
I have tolerated enough.
It's too much for me to take
But I'll still be tolerant
So many things bothering me
I don't want them to take over me

Just a lie.

♥ Sayonara.
3:56 PM





So I am here again after a long while. Things have been going fine in school. Today was hilarious with Jaryne & Liane. They're damnit funny ! Hahahaha. Speaking about school, I have been been a loner in tamil class for two days lah. He didn't come to school today and that lady took me. Hah, I think she's quite nice but ANNOYING. Haha. For the first time, I finished a well-written compo when the first period ended. I feel proud of myself okay. And I love my handwriting, seriously. It's so neat :D Okay, I am crappy today. Oh, and I am not taking 855 to school anymore. Like, in the morning I walk all the way to the mrt station and then board the 195 bus. I think I reach school earlier than usual. Prelim practicals on thursday, damn. I haven't studied. Pfft ): Steamboat on saturday ! Probably I will go, I don't know. If I don't make it, then Mabel would kill me. Haha.

CONFESSION:

I LOVE MY MABELINA CHEAH ! :D :D :D

Never the same again.



♥ Sayonara.
5:38 PM





Deceived Emotions.

Yet another day, in school. The weather is COLD. It's a heavy downpour. Damn. Such a good weather to throw yourself into bed and cover yourself with the comforter. Haha. Oh, and I wonder whether she went to school. Tired-ness is not an excuse to skip school okay. Haha. Morever, I am like more tired than you lah. Haha. If she hadn't gone to school, she would be sleeping like a PIG now. Hurrr, Whatever. I have to survive another three more periods of lessons till school ends. Pfft ): SS, POA & Math. I would definitely fall asleep, I know. My brain cells are not working anymore, I don't have the mental strength to carry on already lah. TSK. But endurance. ENDURE. I have still not decided whether I want to see her after school. I am still deciding. Hurhur. I'll see what mood I'll be in when school ends. Haha. Okay, I'll update later. BYE !

xoxo.

♥ Sayonara.
11:37 AM





So few come and don't go.

I haven't been here in a long while. My internet is down at home for the time being. Tsk. So I am in school using the damn computer. Better in a way, I guess ? I will be able to be more focused. My prelims are nearing. PARANOID. The days come and go with just a flicker of a finger. Pfft. So much that I do not want to retake Tamil O level, I need to retake. TSK. C6 is not me lah, haha. Things are back to where I started off with. My eyes hurt. I am emotionally defeated. Everything hurts me, the things I see. The things she do, it all come to a point where it will hit me so hard. I am vulnerable, so be it. I don't know where did I go wrong.

If you call me today, I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie, you knew what you had
You still walked away
Leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep & Meaningless.

I AM BROKEN.
I LOVE YOU LIKE HOW I'VE ALWAYS.

♥ Sayonara.
4:27 PM





GOODBYE.

GONE FOR GOOD.

It's all said and done but it won't take away my love.
Gone going.

Mahal kita, ♥♥♥


♥ Sayonara.
3:12 PM





Yet another month has passed, it's the 5th month.
Happy 5th, sweets (:

Each time I am about to see you, I get butterflies in my stomach.

EMO
EMO
EMO
EMO
EMO.

Mascara bleeds a blackened tear.
I did love you with my heart.
My heart is heavy.

I<3her
I<3her
I<3her
I<3her
I<3her.


♥ Sayonara.
10:43 PM






DAMN YOU.

asdfghjkl, feelings mixed.
I drift away in my emotions while reminiscing.

♥ Sayonara.
4:18 PM





Tell me, you're never gonna walk away.


When all is said and done
Will we still feel pain inside?
Will the scars go away with night?
Try to smile for the morning light
It's like the best dream to have
Where every thing is not so bad
Every tear is so alone
Like God himself is coming home to say
I'm sorry I have to say it but you look like you're sad
Your smile is gone
I've noticed it bad
The cure is if you let in just a little more love
I promise you this, a little's enough

♥ Sayonara.
11:28 PM





& together, we see it coming.

I am not suppose to go online or update my blog during the weekdays bt temptations are hard to resist. Haha. Nothing much lah, today. I was in a sleepy mood for chemistry. I wasn't paying attention, I couldn't think straight. Whatever lah. Haiyah ! Oh, and during recess I got my hair tied. I LOOKED LIKE A PRIMARY SCHOOL KID LAH ! Most of them said my hair sucks. And yes, my dear yingmin had to add in by saying that I look like a MONGOLIA KID. HAHAHA ! Hilarious man, I tell you. Haha. And then, corissa dared me to go and meet the girlfriend with that hair. asdfghjklmnh. And I know, I will definitely get negative remarks so I was prepared. As much as I thought, I got negative remarks. Anyway, I cannot care less because I liked my hair today. I think I was so cute, uber adorable lah. Okay, fine. I will stop talking about myself. Okay then, tuition was boring /: I yawned so many times okay. Hurhur, there's double chem tomorrow. YAY ! Mother Tongue is first period, pffft ): I haven't completed the letter writing to the prisoners. Oh man, Shucks. I am not planning to complete it anyway. Haha. I RECEIVED A LETTER FROM MY DEAREST FRIEND, CHRISTINA ! And now, she knows I am in love, I AM IN LOVE. <3

My head is going bonkers.
I need to know what she needs
to speak to me about later.
Confessions ?
I am paranoid.
Is it about you feeling for another ?
Breaking free ?
If only you knew, how much I feel for you.
F.



♥ Sayonara.
10:19 PM





My monday & tuesday with her.

My feet, my head, my eyes. They hurt.
Random feelings, random thoughts.

I can't help but to notice in the bedroom something's changed. There's a picture on the dresser that's gone missing from the frame. I could ask you but you'd answer in that same familiar way. That there's nothing wrong, and everything's okay. How you gonna say you're never gonna leave me lonely? How you gonna say you're never gonna walk away? Knowing that you'd break me if you ever say goodbye, So you keep on telling me that everything will be alright, And it's a beautiful lie. You, falling back into the rhythm. I could never forget you. On my fingertips, hurts so good, can't go on like this. Here comes another sunrise, like a broken promise in the skies, It's about to be a different day but you keep on living that same old lie.




♥ Sayonara.
11:09 PM