You see the light die in my eyes.
Eff this day.

I'm vulnerable, I'm naive. My fault.
I CRUMBLE.
I CRUMBLE.
I CRUMBLE.





♥ Sayonara.
9:52 PM





I fall asleep on the book ytd night. I was waiting for the girlfriend to finish her flashcards and stuff. Poor her, okay. She finished everything only at 2am. & I am so sorry, I wasn't of any help at all. ): Conversation ended at three and then goodnight, love. I have not talked to her since then. Hmmpf. It has been a long day for the girlfriend. I bet she's all letargic. Rest well, pretty baby (: Oh, and school is fucken funny. First two periods, english lesson. Comprehension passages about alcoholism and live coaching. They were both easy to undersatnd, how I wished 'O' level was like that. TskTsk. Math was alright. CME was boring okay, she keeps on saying like "It's really good to see you all back and It's such a relieve to see you all less sleepy and more livelier, I am really happy." She keeps on repeating okay. GRRRR ! And that made Liane, Sam & myself not awake. Annoying lah, she. Hahahah. My precious book is in a super bad condition. It has dog ears already lah, damnit. And so, I start to wonder how is "My Friend, Leonard" doing there. Fingers crossed. I hope it's in a good condition, still. Hahah. Mr sekaran has task for me to do AGAIN. It was hard finding for the express indian girls to see him. They're like scattered all over. Pffft ): Bio was FUN ! Practicals, I love lah. Seriously, time passes so quickly. & snails are disgusting. Okay, Yeast stinks. And we had to smell the solution that is mixed with yeast, glucose & a layer of oil. Gross, I tell you. =/ But still, practicals are uber interesting & fun. :D Honeyvan Macapugay, stop being so KAN CHIONG lah ! Haha, and honey missed me during the Hols. YAY ! Okay, enough. School ended at one fifteen today. Lunch-ed at tea gardens with Claudski Boo, Mabes & Sam. Hahaha, lunch was downright hilarious. Mabel & Sam kept on irritating each other in a super funny way. When they start speaking to each other, they just end up quarreling. (not seriously though). And then, I stuffed the nugget with barbeque sauce into mabel's mouth. Attempt failed. She dipped the same nugget into caramel syrup. Mine was not forced into my mouth but I took a bite. Hahahah! Then, we call it a day. I made it home, felt asleep on the couch. Like I slept for two and a half hour okay. Such a oxymoronic, I am. Now, homework time. I love you, I miss you much.


Liane, you're the best.
Mabel, you're the best.
Sam, you're the best.



♥ Sayonara.
7:04 PM





Play, Laugh, Study. School is all about this right now. Hahahah! And I think Nicolette Shankaran is so pretty. The prettiest indian girl I ever seen in my school. Give that girl three years, and a gorgeous young lady she will become. SO HOT, :D :D Probability is so much easier than I thought it was. Hahaha. We had to sprint for five rounds for PE today. It was very tiring. pffft ): Bt working out after so long is not a good thing, Everyone is gonna complain of muscle cramps tmr. Haha. & the class is going to be empty cause absentees will be MORE. Chemistry was great, I want to do more practicals. Chemistry is jst so amazing. Tell me about it man. Yupyup. Bio, she was not there. We spend our time doing straw hearts/stars. Thanks, EVELYN ! Promiscous is a song which will turn you/me/everyone on. HOT (: Buttons by PCD too. HOT HOT HOT ! hahaha. School was intriguing filled with delights. YAY. I'll update later, When I make it home from tuition. I love you, I miss you.

Miss lopez, Don't Care Anymore (:

I am affected, Eff off bitch.

♥ Sayonara.
6:34 PM

• My baby has ulcer too, oh poor us ):
• It was a perfect day with you.
• I miss you, pretty baby ♥
• I don't like her calling you. pfffft ):
• I need to set my priorities right.
• Msn-ing has to stop for a long while.
• I want to watch that bollywood movie. Watch it with me, please ?
• Now, I need to do my work.
• Takecare, sweethearts.

I may not say it quite as much as I should When I say I love you darling that means for goodSo open up your heart and let me in And I will love you 'til forever Until death do us part we'll be together So take my hand and hold on tight And we'll get there This I swear

♥ Sayonara.
9:31 PM





Dear Significant other,
I hope everything goes well tomorrow.

Pretty baby, I miss you.
Pretty baby, I miss you.
Pretty baby, I miss you.
Pretty baby, I miss you.

♥ Sayonara.
12:01 AM





I stay awke the whole of ytd night watching the two matches. ENGLAND's match was horrible, I swear. Wasted my time man, seriously. I think they disppointed their FANS. Hahahah! And Portugal's match was alright, but downright hilarious lah. I was super awake for the portugal's match lah. Christiano Ronaldo is an ACTION MAMA ! Act hot only lah, that guy. Ohh, bt I still got to sleep for 45 minutes. Before the match starts and ends. I slept on the couch. And so, as a result, I feel pain around my neck. Tsk. Furthermore, the right side of my lower lip is swollen lah. & It hurts. Goddamn it. It's still swollen okay. School was HILARIOUS, seriously with the people around me I can just go nuts. Haha. New vice principal and plenty of relieved teachers. So many lah. Miss Lopez looks HOT with shaped eyebrows, at least not a bushy one anymore. Hahahah! Okay, look who's talking. Ah, mine's not so bad. Geog was funny, Cam whored with Liane's. YAY. Munched on Novelyn's Nutella bread & I seem to enjoyed Liane's Chocolate banana cake ! I licked it okay. Hahahah! Ohh, it was delicious. (: YUM ! And I grew
1cm shorter and I weight the same. ): TskTsk. I ate watermelons for recess, healthy healthy. Ohh how I've missed MY MABEL. Okay, she's not mine. SAM'S PROPERTY. :D Mother tongue was alright lah, Orals on coming thursday. I must do well ! Hurhur. F&N was good cause she was not there. We just had to to the computer lab to type the eveluation part. Done, Yingmin and myself went out of school early. Touched home, showered, throw myself onto the bed and SHUT.

♥ Sayonara.
7:54 PM





And some realisation, I get sleepy when I am horny which is good in a way says Ash. I know why, So that she can take advantage of me. Hurhur, I won't allow. :D :D It was a sore loser game ytd, they played so roughly lah. Goodness ): Sweden's passing is like asfgertyubcngdh! We didn't get to make social plans ytd cause I couldn't us the phone. My mom ah, I don't know what to say lah. No doubt, I missed her. Furthermore, It was raining cats and dogs lah. TskTsk. It was a beautiful sleep bt still I yearned for thr girlfriend. Okay, School's like tomorrow. Hello, 5MaryMagdelene (: PREPARED NOT. I miss school, I miss the people around me, I miss Chemistry lessons. And there's F&N tmr. ALAMAK. ): Our tuition, her band practices, my O levels. Considering these important commitments, we can afford once a week to spend with each other ? I guess so, we'll see about it. I believe in the feelings we feel for each other that will still keep us going strong. Somehow, I am afraid. Will you fade away ?

Down to grandma's in the evening, The journey was long okay. And so, I seem to see random good-looking on the train. It's common, I know. Syazwani is a little brat. She's like so adorable and at the same time uber stubborn plus annoying. I brought her to the playground, she played in the swing for a long while and I had to swing her lah. Tsk ): Bt she entertains me with her endless talkings, just a mere three year old. Ohh, and she talks alot. ALOT. She was singing & singing songs that I am not familiar with. Hahahah! Hilarious lah. The playground was soon filled with kids. There are only two swings available lah. Another small kid wanted to play on the swing. But this fatty syazwani refused to get up from the swing. She's too pampered and stubborn lah. ALAMAK. ): I tried persuading her, it didn't work. And then, she got frustrated and she got up and pretended to be angry with me. Hahahah! She is so petty ! ): It was so hard for me to persuade her to go home, I had to give her so many excuses like I am tired and I am feeling warm. And so, we left. She makes me happy :D :D :D Small kids, I love ! Then, she watched barney. She's so smart lah, Whatever the kids were doing in the tv. She followed after them. So adorable okay. Eh, GERAM NYE BUDAK INI ! HAHAHAHAH ! Oh wells, I camwhored with the kid. Told her to do some funny actions and all, she's uber cute lah ! Oh man, I love her. (: And then, she was wearing the kiddy shades. Whtever lah, so vain. -_- Haha. Touched home. I spoke to the girlfriend over the phone :D She's another sweetheart close to my heart. I yearn to see her on tuesday ! BYE BLOG !

M I S S Y O U , H O O L I G A N. G I R L F R I E N D ♥

♥ Sayonara.
1:09 PM





Ash is such a sweetheart (: I love her, lah. Hahahah! Dhoby Ghaut in the morning, I waited for her like half an hour. She's always late lah, Whalao. So annoying. And so, Stupid ash came to meet me with flat hair. OMG. She looked exactly like a MAT TAPPERED lah. Downright hilarious ! She thought she looked fine, but no. Goddamnit. Then, down to tampines mall to catch a movie. SILENT HILL is a good movie, quite alright lah. I love to go movies with the girlfriend ! Halfway through, we got distracted. Cause I was feeling Cold, very cold. I regret wearing skirt lah. Hahahah! Ash is a Horny Freak, I swear. There were funny creatures shown in the movie okay. Like so gross lah, Disgusting liquid gusing out of the bodies. And more to that, the bodies look so sticky and gluey. Aiyer! Hahahah! What more can I do, Just find a spot in her arms and hide. And so, I was held captive her. This makes me all secured and safe. Thanks, baby ! I didn't really understand the ending part, yupyup. That's it, Pick up our bags and left. Ohh, the idols were there. We went over to take a look. She was so upset that nurul was not there. LAZY PIG, ASH MADE ME CARRY HER BAG OKAY. I seriously looked like a bloody lunatic lah, carrying my sling and her haversack. TskTsk. ): Okay, then we decided to get the cones from Mac's. I got the twist cone and she got choco cone. Downright hilarious lah, Hahahah! Her Ice-Cream was melting and all. It dripped and dripped okay. And then, she just had to smudge my face with her ice-cream. Whtever okay. Once was not enough for her, she did it thrice I think. Bloody hell, we were laughing our asses off. LOL. Super funny lah. Walked around for a while, headed to the interchange. Sixty Five, down to Dhoby ghaut. And yet again, the bus ride was long. With the girlfriend there, It will be indeed a Memorable one. Sleep soon overtook me, Head down on her shoulders. Eyes shut, Hair messed up. :D "My Friend, Leonard" was there to accompany her. Nearly for an hour, I slept. Sorry lah, Hun. (: Soon, Bid goodbye. Sayonara Sweetheart (: A Perfect day with you, I love you much <3.

And now, GO GERMANY !

♥ Sayonara.
11:22 PM





Fractures in the facade of your porcelain beauty* get on me nd show me that u mean it (: says:
We'll end it all here.

Could be your eyes, could be your smile, could be the way you freed your mind. Your precious touch caressed my soul, You gave me everything I need. And now, I am lost. I can't let you go, that's it. Wishful thinking on my part, I can't respect your decision.

♥ Sayonara.
11:24 AM





I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you.

& I MISS YOU, TWELVE.

♥ Sayonara.
10:33 AM





Yet another day with you, It all seemed delirious in the beginning. I share my laughters and tears with you. Thanks, anyway. The things we do, The things you say. A happiness I found with you, I was happy the way we were. Upsetting it is, Tsk. I don't wanna say anymore, I don't want to rake up your past anymore. The bitterness I feel everytime we quarrel over trivial matters. I've tried bt I just can't understand what all the fuss is about. What can I say to make you stay and stop breaking free from me, I need you to see. Can you remember yesterdays, we used to smile without a care. It's killing me, ash. It's killing me. I need you to hear me out, I need you to be patient with me & most importantly I need you to control your temper. You see the light die in my eyes cause I am afraid to lose you. Now I am asking you, why is it always me who has to try to make things feel right ? I've always known the love you've shown means I'll never be alone. From the moment I looked into your eyes, all of my life I thought I'd be there by your side. I wish I'd took the time to find the words to say. You know when you smile, I feel at ease and we we will be together once again.

I love you, baby.
xoxo,
Nish.

♥ Sayonara.
9:29 PM





Be proud of me, I cooked at home today. Mom is down with a high fever. Fishball soup today and It tastes great man. Hahahah! Okay, nvm. I am so sorry ! I was late by one and a half hour lah. The girlfriend waited, waited & waited. Then, down to her crib. Together we watched the movie "The Reunion". It's a damn bloody good movie lah. I cried terribly, I guess. Tears just keep rolling down my cheeks. The touch of her hands are to die for, I swear. And So, I was held captive next to her for the whole time. You change my world with just one kiss. The warmth of your smile, The heart of a child, That's deep inside leaves me purified (: Soon, sleep overtook me. I slept on her bed and there goes my thoughts. I thought about of alot of things which made me cry my hearts out. The way she shouted at the top of her voice from the other room hurt me so bad. Over-sensitive ? I don't know. Just affected. The girlfriend came, consoled. I did feel better but it was tearing me apart inside. Enough of crying, I slept for a while to put my mind at ease. I came to my senses and it was the happier side of me when I woke up. Ohh, we laughed together after that. Hahahah ! She has court shoes nd she wore it. It was downright hilarious, I swear. I laughed like nobody's business. :D Ignoring my emotions and putting on a fake front does not help anymore. Bt I will love her for as long as she wants me to. I have became someone whom I don't know. I am in love, that's it.

♥ Sayonara.
11:17 PM





This is what happened today. I drag myself out of bed, It's like I could not wake up cause my head was feeling heavy. I knew it was maigraine. My head was spinning inside. Ouch, I felt pain. I almost broke down in tears. I did not even feel like going for the DAMN orals lah. ): Showered, called my baby ! I miss that bitch so badly okay. Spoke/whine-ed to her nd cabbed down to school cause I thought I was LATE. Actually, I was on time. In my case, I was the first one to finish bt the last one to leave the hall. Tsk, I had to be the Time-Keeper lah. Wahlao, eh. Somemore, I forgot to bring "My Friend, Leonard". And so, this leaves me with nothing to do but to stone and watch the time goes by. I was falling asleep, the weather was like windy and all. Yupyup. I was being very like cannot-sit-in-one-place-for-too-long kind of thing. I realise that I need to move around somehow. Hurhur, okay. I was being crazy at the bus-stop while waiting for the girlfriend. I thought she was not gonna turn up. Being the "Smart" one, I boarded the second 855 which came. Down to serene center to meet skye, passed her the paper. She calls me SHORTY ! I think Skye is so funny, hurhur. Ohh, and that wannabe butch does not look like skye and vice-versa. Like seriously, EWWWWW. I am so grossed-out lah. Hahahah, I am so mean. Bt I don't care lah. Hahahah! So I left her and then took 153 down to ash's place. The bus ride is Soooooooo Dragggggyyyyyyyy. ): Long bus rides only with a novel or music. If not, no way. Ohh, and I did a good deed today. YAY, give me your compliments ! Hahahah ! There was this catholic high school boy who boarded the bus. High shorts, high bag, glasses bt looked intelligent. He alighted soon. I happen to just randomly look at his seat and saw some wallet lying there. And I quickly took the wallet, ran to the bus driver told him abt it. Fortuanately, the bus did not take off from the bus stop just yet. That boy had alr walked a distance, I ran shouting "AYEEEEE, BOYYYYY" repeatedly. And then, he was like "oh, thank you very much". Then I just ran back and hopped on the bus. I sat down and my head was FUCKING spinning and DAMN, It was giving me a sharp pain. Feeling faint, I closed my eyes and rest for a while. Soon, I alighted. Walked, Walked & walked. I saw the girlfriend and I was feeling guilty. Ohh, the girlfriend looked majorly HOT today. Actually, everyday lah. Hahahahah! Her head will burst if she's gonna read this. Ash, stupid ash. I love her, still. @ her crib, I was still having maigraine. Tsk ): I still made-out. Like whtever lah, Temptations. Tell me abt it man. Ash, you better stop hitting my head with your bolster ahh. It's painful and it's violent plus It's considered girlfriend-abuse. And so, I can sue you for this. STOP IT, BUTCH. Please don't be so mean, alright ? Hey baby, I love you :D

♥ Sayonara.
9:07 PM





I could not sleep last night okay. My flu is acting up again and it's so annoying. TSK ! I keep sneezing and sneezing till I finish a whole new box of tissue paper. Wahlao eh. The flu was better when I popped in three tablets in the middle of the night. And then, I could sleep quite peacefully. Bt it was definitely a beautiful sleep not. Cherries blossoming & runny nose is not funny. Goddamnit. ): I wake up with a blocked nose, sneeze it all out. All bright yellowish substance. Gross man, Gross. Ohh, I was going through friendster and I saw pictures of the friend who has gone for good. What can I say ? =/

Now I really need to tell you that, I miss you very much. I didn't even talk to you properly lah today. & I am feeling so oiedwkljaiwqoqknxm. I need to speak to you, I need to tell you about my day, I need to tell you how much I miss you, I need to whine to you, I need to show how much I care for you, I need to hear abt your day, I need to know how're you doing over there, I need to tell you goodnight, I need to tell you abt so many things and I just need to tell you that I really really really miss you. ): All my life, I've waited. This is true. <3

♥ Sayonara.
10:28 PM





Can you feel the love tonight ? I miss my girlfriend, I miss her. Whines !

1. I did a new blog for the girlfriend which she does not appreciate.
2. I read "My Friend, Leonard".
3. I did housework which was uber tiring.
4. I got pretty girl boxers from Tom & Stefanie.
5. I didn't do my tuition homework ):
6. Christiano Ronaldo's is playing for portugal and his jersey number is SEVENTEEN ! :D
7. The IM girl from Crescent is more important to Ash. Tsk. =/
8. And here, I am feeling mentally tired of THIS.
9. I have the right to be jealous, don't I ?
10. Out of all the friends, I miss Liane&Mabel only.

♥ Sayonara.
1:34 PM





Ohh, & the previous entry was a bloody long one lah. I've decided not to go for bio today cause I am tired. Good morning, universe. Now, BIO TYS. Bye !

Happy anniversary to MOM&DAD ! (:

I think the above picture is damn nice lah, I made it myself. Hahahah! The template is cooler with black background, I guess. Oh, & The folks are funny man. They even forgot their own anniversary date. They both only knew when I wished them. Hurhur, & the day was great again with the girlfriend. Okay, I am suffering from MAJOR FLU. The result of Excessive plus intensive making out. TskTsk. It's killing me lah, Goddamnit. ): My boobs are so uneven lah, so annoying. The left one is like UBER HUGE lah, I swear. It disgusts me man. I Like small & undeveloped tits. Presently, they are painful. Let me predict, Cherries will be blossoming in two days' time. Wait and see. There's 2 more minutes for a new day to begin. Good mornight, LoveLove ! :D

♥ Sayonara.
2:58 PM





The day went well, indeed. Feeling all tired and sleepy and yet I could not sleep last night, Dreams made me worry. I was paranoid lah. Tossing and turning left and right, went back to sleep again. Then later when sun rises and the alarm goes, Drag myself out of bed. Showered, down to kovan to meet the girlfriend. Yet another day, hahahah! & she comes half an hour late, TskTsk. Ohh, I am always waiting but I don't mind. Haha. Nd, she went back home again to take some work to do cause her band starts at one.

And so, I walked with her. Ohh, and I think your hair's hot lah. Long, Nice, Emo. Hahahah! We can be EMO together together ! Now, that sounded so (fill in adjective). Yupyup. Ltr, walked back to Mac's. She does her english while I read my book. It's an EMO book. (: There was renovation going on at there. The drilling sound annoys the hell out of me. I hate screeching sounds/noises. We could not decide where to go. I suggested Chomp Chomp. Bt she disagreed. The only place left was sengkang, compass point. Oh, and she made me walk from one bus-stop to the other. She insisted on walking to the another one but I insisted I will stay.

Hahahah! And you, ash ! you're such a LOSER lah. Walk till so far bt then you still had to walk back to where I was. Hahahah! It was funny, if you realised. And the girlfriend sits cross-legged when she's studying. Okay, stop commenting. Lunch-ed at Banquet. Seriously, she was so adorable lah. Like "I don't know what to choose" in a whiney voice. Still, both ended up eating chicken rice and the drink was green tea. YAY ! This was the bestest meal I had with her.

We talked alot, I understand her better. She made me love/adore her more. I don't know why, I felt the LOVE today. It were smiles and laughs, :D. The meal was simple but yet a memorable one. I love her. Then, walked ard. And so, I was the model for lingerie today lah. She made me stand at the t-shirt bras' section and then she captures. Oh, bt it was fun. I sure enjoyed it, I was acting retarded. Giving spastic & baring teeth smiles. That is so me, right ? hahahah! Green is like the favourite of many nowadays. It's not unique anymore lah, Tsk. ): Oh wells, I will still love green. Nd, she sends me to sengkang library and she goes for band. I waited for her for four hours. Ain't I such a sweetie pie ? I have got music and the book to keep me occupied. So I wasn't feeling like a LONER. While I read, I had ear plugs. I read, read & read.

Reading can make me forget everything lah. Actually not really, I visited the ladies thrice okay. I was feeling very COLD. Oh man, I was shivering. Okay then, I went back and forth. I didn't tell ash this bt I am writing it down here. I met a new friend today. She's a girl lookig very sweet, nice smile and polite. She's in primary school I guess. She was being mysterious when she saw me at first. Then, she came, sat at the bench near me. I was sitting on the carpented floor. She brought this whole pile of books and stack at the bench. I was like damnit, wht are you trying to do man. Obviously, I did not say it out to her lah. She started laying them out as if there's gonna be a book sale. Hilarious lah. One of her books drop, I picked it up and hand it to her. "thank you", she said. God knows where she went to after tt, she did not seem to be returning back. People were staring at me as if I was not allowing them to sit. Wahlao eh. Nd, I stacked back the books. Yupyup.

I've read half the book already, majorly engrosed. Close it, stood up, Walked out of the library. Esclator-ed down and there she came behind me. I was happy to see her again. I yearned for her bt I chose to ignore tht emotions. If I gave attention to tht emotion/feeling, I know I would miss her really alot. So yeah. Hurhur, she was acting adorable speaking in I don't know wht way. Definitely it was acting extremely baby-ish. Hahahah! She made me feel happy, very happy today. It's just a feeling felt. Well, her pearly soya bean milk was disgusting lah. ALAMAK. The pearls, I'll never forget. (:

I borrowed the girlfriend my book & it's boring to her. Hahahah! She fall asleep lah. How could she man ? TskTsk. Headed to tuition, concentration span was for like 1 hour and I started to yearn for her touch already. I could not concentrate, My eyes felt heavy. I needed sleep, my beautiful sleep. I missed/miss her. Why did she have to go ? Now, I need to rest my eyes. Goodnight, goodbye.

♥ Sayonara.
2:59 PM





Good morning.
It's 12:12 am now on mine.
& wht coincidence, it's her's.
This hurt I 'm feeling now will not disappear overnight.
I WILL WAKE UP HAPPY.

I didn't update abt ytd when I saw Daphne Khoo at the queensway bus-stop. I think she's smaller than me lah. & she is not pretty. She took over the lead singer of West Grand Boulevard lah. Like so Whtever lah. Tsk. Nd, the day was great. Err, no. Just alright. Hahaha! Oh, Down to Sengkang in the morning with the bloody school uniform. Walked ard compass point for while. & then, to the girlfriend's school. She was outside waiting already but I was not late. Conversations were quiet, I kept silent. And continue getting engrossed in the book I am reading now. "My Friend, Leonard". It's super interesting lah. Not sexually lah, DUH. Later to her crib, ate lunch & watched Lion King there. I swear, it's a good movie. I cried okay, I fucking cried man. So embarrassing lah. The girlfriend's youngest sister seem to make my day. I think she cheers me up. (: After watching, Sleep soon overtook me. I slept on the couch itself. Nd, Signals came (: I needed to go up and hanky panky with her. Hahahahah ! Ohh, It was a rainy day today. & I get extremely turned on. My mom is suffering from food poisoning. And I am not affected. I think she ate the wrong food at the work place. I thought I was suppose to do all the housework today. The darling sister of mine did them, Miracles happen ? Hahahahah! She's such a darling. Sorry, I am Contradicting. Live with it. Now, I love my sister (:

Can you feel the love tonight ?

♥ Sayonara.
1:21 PM





And so, I went to school like a good girl today. I thought I was late, bt I was nine minutes early. I went straight to the Bio Lab to check and there was no one. Mrs leong's lab was locked. So I asked the lab attendant whether Mrs leong has any lessons today & she said NO. I walked to the canteen, there was still noboby. Okay, then I went to library. Nd saw novelyn & rachel. Ohh, & they told me Bio lesson is cancelled. I am like what the?! TskTsk. Stayed there for a while then made my way back hm. The weather was super HUMID lah. I wanted to go for a swim, but the weather turned me off. Hahaha. Ohh, & I swear I did not do anything to my hair. It's NATURAL. I love my hair lah. It's jet black & the curls are wonderful. Okay, Bye for now.

LIBRA/Nish.
Very gentle.
Very romantic
Nice, when needs to be
Love is one of a kind.
Silly and fun, sweet !
Have own unique sexiness.
Most caring person you will ever meet
Amazing in Bed.
Very sensitive
By FAR the finest
out-spoken
love being in long relationships
very honest
revengeful
giving
has to be forced to fight but when they fight they don't lose
Naughty

Fractures in the facade of your porcelain beauty* get on me nd show me that u mean it (: says: SECOND, THIRD, FIFTH, SIXTH, SEVENTH, ELEVENTH ND THIRTEENTH

(oh, I underlined the ones that she said that I posses, hahahah!)

VIRGO/Ash.
Dominant in relationships.
Sexy.
Always horny(LIKE RIGHT NOW)
Freak in bed.
Always wants the last word.
Caring.
Smart.
Addictive.
Attractive.
Loud.
Loyal.
Great dancer
Awesome kisser
Sexy as hell
Not the one to ........ with
(The undelined ones are done by me which best describes the girlfriend !)

Okay, I took this from hayl's blog. Hahaha, I think the virgo one is SUPER true ! Always Horny, always. But I like it, haha. BYE !

Hahaha, I am back from fizah's house. So funny lah, we were suppose to actually run today. But guess wht, we ordered KFC and ate like PIGS. Stuffing our mouths with fattening food. TskTsk. We talked about the friend who has gone for good. Sometimes I realise things too late and I always end up regretting. Was it a wishful thinking on my part, I don't know lah. & now, I think I've got digestion problems lah. DAMN. And the girlfriend, I don't know where has she gone to. She's not back yet which pisses me off. Tsk. I miss her lah, Wahlao eh. Hahahah! Tmr is studying with Skye at Holland V. But I don't think I will be going. I don't know, If gf allows I will go. If not then, too bad. Now, BIO TYS. Bye.

You're the heart and soul and the reason we do what we do, here's to you.

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was/am trying to do

Are you out of your mind
You dug yourself into a liar's hole
You made a little spark to live inside
It's now a fucking fire without control
When the morning comes, you'll act surprised
And when the word gets out it will get old
And everyday you try to live your live
And every little scandal will unfold

Be sensitive to my feelings, will you ?



♥ Sayonara.
4:19 AM





Afternoon, People. The goodnight sleep was bad. I slept at ard one last night. Nd I could not sleep so I toss and turn in my bed for a while. Then I fall asleep. Suddenly at ard 3am, I woke up. & I hear murmurs of crying. Oh man, they were still quarreling over the line. He's there and she's here. Domestic partnership lah. He's such a FUCKER. Nd, I could not sleep after that. I yearned for her, I yearned for her touch in the middle of the night. How I wish she was here, NOW. I yearn for her so much ah, Cannot cannot. She will read this nd her EGO will burst. & her head will start to grow bigger. My sunday is gonna be BORING. Study, Study, Study.

Okay, I am back after housework-ing. So annoying okay. I had to fold the clothes, arrange the shoes and sweep the house. & still, It's not completed yet. Cause I need to go mop later which is knnbccb. Ohh, I am so vulgar. & then, my sister is so annoying. She keep on asking me to edit her photos which I don't intend to. Cause It looks edited alr lah. Tsk. Stupid. I have cravings for jellybeans now. I am such a PIG. I know, I eat & eat & eat. 4kg, forget abt it. ): My knee has this sharp pain when touched.


Ash: SO WHT HOUSE WORK U DOING?
Me: haha, did finish alr lah. Fold the clothes, arrange the shoes, sweep the hse. And then later, I need to MOP. TSK.
Ash: HEHEHE
Ash: SO FUNNY
Me: what's so funny ?
Ash: IF ONLY YR MUM WAS OUT, I COULD COME HELP U OUT
Me: IDIOT.
Me: Haha, what only. no need.
Ash: THE ARRANGEMENT OF SHOES PART IS FUNNY
Me: Do at your hse first.
Me: HAHA, yeah yeah yeah
Ash: HAHA, I NO NEED TO DO AT MY HSE
Ash: THE ARANGEMENT OF SHOES , THE WAY U SAY
Ash: LIKE FLOWER ARRANGEMENT LIKE THAT
Me: idiot !
Ash: HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA

The conversation that make me :D :D :D

And so, my sister's being such a BITCH. TOTALLY! She's so annoying lah. Firstly I did a mistake by admitting to her tht I am with ASH. Whenever she's nt happy with me, she hints to my mom. So what should I call her now ? Childish/(FILL IN ADJECTIVE). Knnbccb. Uber annoying lah, Bitch. I feel like screaming at her okay. It sucks being the youngest and having a elder sister who is self-centered. RAHHHHHH! & then, I didn't study today. Wor, watched tv the whole time. The tamil movie not bad eh. Hahaha! Being nice to her, I can just forget about it. Whenever my mom asks me abt her & her love life, leaking it out will be the best thing to do. I DON'T CARE. My sister has no access to my blog anymore. She does nt know the password. It's better in a way tht she can FUCKING HELL nt know abt my life. WHORE, she is. You Dig your own grave, you ask for it.

♥ Sayonara.
11:07 AM





(edit)
Okay, the day was quite dull. Boring days are here to stay, definitely. I actually did my tuition homework nd I fall asleep while she happily enjoys shopping with her family. HMMPF. Attended a wedding with my sister just now at Boon Lay. When I get out of the train, the station was filled with all the BANGLAS okay. So many, dsnjkewfdoijfdew! Like I felt like my sister and I were stealing the limelight. Haha, Okayokay. I will stop it with the EGO. Then we made our way to meet one of her friend & then off to the wedding. It was not too bad, the place was air-conditioned. COLD ! The food was alright lah. My sister then abandoned me while I went home alone. Her friend fetched her lah. Nevermind. Touched home, called her. Still not home yet. I missed her so bad, so much. The thought of you so near yet so far tears me apart. The only cure is YOU. Reminiscing makes me (:
(/edit)

It's a new day. Good morning, World.

♥ Sayonara.
2:59 PM





Where is that beautiful ?

Check out the time for this entry, 12:17. Coincidences, baby. I just did a blog for my sister, see I am so nice right ? Haha. & then, I so miss her lah. She's an obsession already, can't help it. Yupyup. I just finish reading the dictionary. Actually not literally read, but I found out meanings for plenty plenty of words. Okay now, I need to go and study. BYE.

♥ Sayonara.
3:17 AM





Firstly, I apologise for making MABEL&LIANE wait so long for me. I am so sorry lah, this won't happen again lah. I hope so, SORRY! I wake up on a friday morning. The weather was COLD, SO COLD. Throw yourself on the bed, Cover yourself with the comforter and then just SLEEP. That will feel so GOOD. But I decided to drag myself out of bed, showered nd pretend as if I've got school. Haha, cause dad was thinking tht I have got school today. So I went over to ash's Crib. I was so sleepy okay, In the train I was falling asleep but I still CAM WHORED. There's was no one anyway, hahahaha. Nd reached there, She was on the computer as usual. Always, you know. I tell you, she loves FRIENDSTER. I don't know why, but probably I know why. Cause that's where she found me. Hahaha, Okay I made that reason up. Friendster Is a matchmaker lah. Wonderful connection eh. Haha. I got stuck on songs nd played solitaire. Ash's computer is nonsense okay. In the day, the internet connection is DEAD. Nd in the night, It's alright. Wht only, you know. Soon sleep overtook me, I fall asleep on the computer table. Yupyup. "You're not going to meet your friends", she said. My ass lah, I still met them okay. IDIOT. It's gonna be the end of the week and I saw you from Monday till today. Hurhur, but I still miss you lah. TskTsk. Down to PS, then to heeren to meet Mabel&Liane. Okay, We were like 1hr10mins LATE. I AM SO SORRY. [: Then Down to bugis. We took the wrong bus lah, thanks to ash ah. Mabel didn't find her jeans. We walked, walked & walked aimlessly. Topshop black shorts, so NICE okay. Fifty three bucks will just fall from the sky. =/ Mabel pulled my hair so hard just to get me out of topshop okay. Haha, So funny. Liane and I seemed to be so engrossed in trying on Visers/Caps. Going out with them was never DULL, It is always remarkable. Down to Far East, Jeans was not her type at all. Mabel is super Fussy, I swear. I saw DEE & PAM like after so long. Dinner-ed at Chicken Rice Stall, Obviously it has to be HALAL. My laughter was too screechy I guess, the malays from the other table started talking about us. Whatever man. Nd, Liane&Mabel left to Wisma. I left for tuition with Ash. The bus ride was LONG but I definitely enjoyed it. Haha, You should know why (: LoveLove. CALVIN KLEIN GIRL BOXERS ARE SO NICE ! WOR, NICER THAN TOPSHOP ONES LAH ! YAY !

I miss you. ♥




♥ Sayonara.
2:35 PM





Okay, Here It is. The template is better now, Words clearer. Everything can be seen. Okay, This template ROCKS big time lah. Probably I won't change it at all. Nd, Bio Practical was interesting today. I like Experimenting with leafs. Hahaha. Seeing her at One, & I don't know what to wear. It's a Cold day, I shall wear long sleeve & Jeans. Hurhur, Mom bought a new perfume. The scent is so NICE ! I like, I am gonna use it today. Yupyup. I have the tempatation to smoke seesha/shisha. Whatever the spelling is. I never tried it before but I would love to. Haha. Okay now, It's drizzling. TskTsk. Now I'm off, I'll update later. BYE, !

This angel's kiss was a Lie, All I wanted was your happiness.

♥ Sayonara.
2:47 AM





Good Morning :D A new day has started. My template has been changed, YAY. And then, I've got school later. I need to rest my eyes, BYE.

I am willing to give it all up just to be with you.

♥ Sayonara.
3:53 PM





070606. Happy 3rd Monthsary, :D

& then, down to heartland mall to meet her. Okay, I hurriedly did the stuff. Glitters everywhere. My hands, my face, my shorts. Everywhere lah. & then, The colour of the glitter is like red&green. Two in one, Nice Nice. Soon after, she came. I was writing the last page still. I was lost of words lah. I don't know what to write, seriously. It was blank up there. After reading it from another, I wrote what I felt. Like hurhur, I hope she did cared and thought what I wrote. I think she will lah, Hahaha. & then, ash takes so long to finish a meal from McDonalds. She was acting cute & I just refuse to give her my attention. Hahaha. Serves you right lah, Ash. I had to finish up her fries. And so, that makes me a GLUTTON. Cause Fries are so So SO Fattening. I can't afford to have Fats muliplying any part of my body. NO WAY lah. Hahaha. I mean it, okay. Nd, She was pissed with me for I seriously don't know wht. I didn't give a care about it, anyway. Okay, I am not being mean. I was just too tired and sleepy to care. Sorry lah. The train was moving too fast tht my fringe was haywire too, I couldn't even sleep. Hahaha, I got so annoyed. I Pushed back the fringe and tied my hair. This means that I would have looked like a KUKU. But You think I care. NO. Hahaha, Tuition was interesting. WOR. Indian girls staring at me, What's new man? TskTsk. No life lah, Losers. I am involved in a GGR, so? Alamak. & then, Mr hamzah was like "What's happening to you, Why're you missing lessons so often ?" I just gave him a smile & walked away. I think I was rude. =/ Homed, Onlined. I've got a seriously vulgar girlfriend. I got hell from her which I think was real bad. I am so USELESS. I make her upset all the time. Am I not good enough for you ? TELL ME. Till then, ZIP.


Fractures in the facade of your porcelain beauty* get on me nd show me that u mean it (: says:
IT'S ALREADY IN U MAN

Fractures in the facade of your porcelain beauty* get on me nd show me that u mean it (: says:
YR FUCKING PERSONALITY

This two sentences was enough to tear me apart, Half Smiles.

♥ Sayonara.
9:54 PM





I'M NOT MIA-ING. Okay, the day was tiring. I miss the girls/boys there. Especially the smallest one of the family. I had great time there. & yes, childhood cousin was there. It has been like donkey years since I saw him. Okay, he's super tall lah. Okay, He's so funny ! Haha, I think I laughed too much. Urm, When have I not laughed so much till I cry. It happens, always. I hope the smile/laughter will not be GONE. The feeling of missing her was Un-Controllable. Three days was enough to put me to a test. & every night, I wonder whether I still have the place in her heart. My insecurities are back. And then, I think I have gain weight ! OMG. I seriously need to do something about it. Homed at around 0730pm. I yearned to hear her. I called, she was out. I wonder where she went. Physically, super tired. I went over there, called and she came. I know I troubled her, made her pissed/annoyed/frustrated. Seeing her looking so good was revitalizing. A cuddle, smile I gave her. Spoke a little & I made my way back. Mixed emotions and feelings. I hope I will wake up happy for a new day tomorrow.

♥ Sayonara.
10:40 PM







I yearn to see you.


I'm off to Johor and I will be back tomorrow. Okay, I'll miss you. [: I'll bring hippo with me !YAY.

Please don't stray.



♥ Sayonara.
4:20 AM





Like the beat of my heart, you are.

You know I heart you, Twelve.

The bestest feeling, ever (:


♥ Sayonara.
2:30 PM





It was a long day, indeed. I did not hear her voice for the whole of today. Morning and evening conversations over MSN, that's all.
Ash, I Miss You MUCH. To hear your voice on the line, I yearn. (:

♥ Sayonara.
2:07 PM