Yes, I'm feeling really tired & sleepy.

You close the door in front of me,
I wait patiently outside
But as the minutes tick away
I feel the anger rise
Who's the object of this rage, who's not being fair
Is it you for your indifference or me for just standing there

I could brag on things I've done or the places I have been
But I never found a cure for on the outside looking in
Sometimes it's hard to understand, they say that pride's a sin
Should I go or should I stay on the outside looking in ?

♥ Sayonara.
8:58 PM





One more week left to Os.
One week.
Seven days.
One week.
Seven days.


Hopes, Chances.

♥ Sayonara.
10:53 PM





And so, yesterday night was bad. I slept at four ? heh. I was on the line with her till three or three plus. Oh, it was bad. DON'T ASK. & I didn't get to watch the OC yesterday cause apparently someone took over the television. Damnit lah, okay. I woke up today, feeling nostalgic. Thinking abt ytd, it's so asdfghjkl. pfft. I was not exactly glad that I got a missed call from her but definitely I miss you. When I tried to call back, her mobile was off-ed. heh. I couldn't watch episodes 5-8 cause the DVD does not want to play. hur. So I skipped to Episode 9 ? ha. Ryan & Marissa are like together. YAY. Seth should just with Anna ? ha. I think she's like sull of style lah. I mean Anna. Okay, enough about the OC. It's AWESOME.

This year has been great. With sorrows, happiness, new changes and the list goes on. It is a whole different year for me. I settled down with a relationship which I believe can bring us far. What the future holds, it's in our hands. It's so depressing when you get older and realise things are not as easy as they seem or use to be. This is my biggest fear. And it's all about that girl, that girl with that pretty eyes & awesome dimples. I close my eyes and wander back to childhood, running around with no worries/fears. My friends and I there stood laughing & giggling with happy tears. Asking permission to spend the night. Everything seemed quite alright. Opening my eyes, I face reality now. & then I cry looking around & seeing before me the things that make me die inside. Wondering what happen to the old days that seemed to fly right by.

Please, I'm sorry.

♥ Sayonara.
2:14 PM





(edit)
Today is a depressing day cause I had to break fast alone at home. Cause apparently everyone was out and I was left alone again. It's damn sad okay. I studied BIO ? Though I couldn't register all the information but It was was still worth my time. I couldn't resist tempatations but I had to watch the OC. Cause my sister has all the seasons of the OC lying on her table. It's just so tempting lah. And yes, dudes. I am starting it all over from season one. I think Marissa is so pretty and ryan is like so sweet. hurr. And luke can just go suck dicks okay. Damn him. Seth is like adorable too. And I know, summer & him will work out one day. heh. I am gonna watch the second part later when everyone is not awake. I'm gonna be a ZOMBIE today. I've got to study too. I've got many distractions bt let me rest my mind for awhile okay ? ha. Oh, and then she just called me. I'm happy to hear her, actually. And she called to check on me ? hmpf. I am tongue-tied and I better be. hur. Okay now, back to the OC ! Goodnight, world (:

Did you ever love me ?

♥ Sayonara.
11:47 PM





Confessions of a broken heart.

Yesterday was TORTURING.
I've made plenty of hearts to bleed.
I ruined it, I screwed it up big time.
Felt apologies.
I am left with nothing to do
to make all these seem better.
I've lost that one thing I tried to hold on forever.
I'm broken but I'm hoping.
With these emotions, I am stucked.
And the more, I try to feel the less I'm whole.
All alone on the edge of seventeen.

♥ Sayonara.
12:32 PM





Underoath ;
Some will seek forgiveness, others escape.

I heard a voice through the dischord of a deluge of passers-by.
I saw one gaze frozen in time watching me passing by.
I swear I'll know your face in the crowd,
and I'll hear your voice so loud when you're whispering

Hey unfaithful I will teach you to be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you to fogive one another.
Here's my kiss to betray desperate to brush the lips of grace.
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I've lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
wrap your loving arms around me.
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
wrap your loving arms around me.

Hey unfaithful I will teach you to be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you to forgive one another.
Hey unfaithful I will teach you to be stronger, to be stronger.

Hey unloving,

I will love you
I will love you
I will love you.

♥ Sayonara.
11:23 AM

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♥ Sayonara.
2:28 AM





The hardest part.

This ________ is so hard to keep.
Promises, Compromises, Trust, Believe.
It was never seen as a mistake.
After all these while, I am glad to have you.
Sometimes wanting me to leave,
sometimes wanting to stay.
Situations get complexed.
Stepping in another shoe,
wondering how I'll turn out.

For If love has left its imprint here
Then so have I.


♥ Sayonara.
1:47 AM





(edit)
take a moment, hear my woes.
And so now, I sit here feeling better.
Much better.

The light in your eyes keeps fading out
The night's falling deeper in the heart
Hiding the truth and crashing down
My baby's a dancer in the dark
Run to your boy, don't conceal your scars
Run to your boy, let him feel your love
Before it's too late

♥ Sayonara.
7:41 PM





Right from the time I touched home from school till now, I'm crying.
This needed to happen at this point in time.
I love you all the same right from the start.
We'd love, not fake.

& sorry for being random here.
I am still thinking whether to absent from school tmr.
This flu is killing me.
I feel the temperature rising.
And yet, this all has to happen today.
Break down, baby.
This heart is yours to keep.

♥ xoxo.

♥ Sayonara.
3:41 PM





Collapse.

Conversations are quiet.
It's like you've been away for too long.
What went wrong ?
The hardest part.
I want to breakdown.
I hope you're still here &
I awesomely miss you.

maybe not now, maybe never, but you have been the remedy
keep our xoxo(s) constant like your tattoos.
And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
unsure, insecure ;
nobody said it wasnt okay, nobody said it'd be easy.

♥ Sayonara.
8:13 PM





The way I do.

Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin,
can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight,
I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one

Now look at what you've done
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you

Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you The way I do
Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you The way I do
I love you I need you I want you, the way I do

Inconsequential,
xoxo.

♥ Sayonara.
4:07 PM






Credits to Ash.

♥ Sayonara.
8:08 PM





heh. Down to Bishan Library to study with Ashie baby ! :D hurrr, I did only like four questions & I got distracted. haha. She's was being super sweet today. heh (: Oh, and I saw that Diana. It was so hilarious lah. haha. Ash was being an irritant by shouting my damn name from some corner of the library. Oh man, I tell you. Which part of S I L E N T don't you understand ? heh. & then she was feeling hungry and she did a good deed today. SHE MADE ME BREAK FAST OKAY ! well done, ash. I felt so guilty okay. damnit. I've never done this before okay. hurrrr. Back to the library, we talked, talked & talked. Haha. And so, she kept insisting to give diana a ring and ask her to come & study with us both. heh. Diana's friend was there too. So when they came, I couldn't keep my gap shut. I just kept on talking but apparently those three ignored me. Pfft ): But I am sure I entertained them :D haha. & soon, it was farewell (:

I MISS HER LAH.

♥ Sayonara.
9:16 PM





Happy Seventh Monthsary, Ashie baby ! :D

Love in London ♥

♥ Sayonara.
12:00 AM





Shanye Ward; No Promises.

Hey baby, when we are together,
doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven,
feeling high I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don't wanna run away,
baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms.

I don't want to run away,
I want to stay forever, thru time & time.
No promises
I don't wanna run away,
I don't wanna be alone
No Promises

Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
now and forever my love
No promises
I don't wanna run away,
baby you're the one I need tonight,
Here tonight.


♥ Sayonara.
8:37 PM





Today is LOVE.

Mabel, Liane, Krystl, Mary, Natasha, Jaryne, Samantha, Novelyn, Yingmin, Jiarui & Shermain. Thanks a MILLION for that AWESOME gift. You guys are great (: Really, I owe everything to you ladies (: AWESOME BABY ! And to those who made this day possible in one way or another, thanks a million for all the birthday wishes. I really appreciate all of them sincerely. My dearest friends, you all are GREAT.

♥
And i want to thank you, too for keeping constant all these while. You have given me alot of courage and I'm ready to let you know that you've touched my heart. There's just too many I'd like to tell you but now is never the right time. Someday I'll learn to need you. Being scared as you said, isn't wrong at all. Even if all were to fail, I'm glad to have you.

♥ Sayonara.
8:51 PM





School was AWESOME.

Liane, Mabel, Sam & Me.
You can hear the calling.
there's only room for four.
no hassle, we'd give and take, we'd love, not fake.

Hey unloving, I'll love you and I'll love you.

♥ Sayonara.
6:34 PM